but the thing is that wad do u think would make me so mad that my face was sticky and wet with my salty tears?? DO YOU THINK THE WORLD HAS TO BE NICE TO YOU? DO YOU THINK THAT EVERYSINGLE PERSON IN THIS UNIVERSE HAS TO BE NICE TO YOU EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF EVERY DAY? fine i noe that's how u are. i dun mind. but when i get angry at you. u are pissed too. but when ur good friend is angry. u tug at her shirt and moan to her to not be angry at you. You used to do that to me too. but wad happened? maybe it's a different situation now and i did not make my thoughts clear to you. do you have any idea how i felt when u didn't care at all? u didn't even come and ask me wad was going on? u just ASSUMED that i was 'thinking about stuff' and when i looked at u without smiling.u rolled ur eyes at me. i noe it's my fault too. cause u dunno wad i was thinking. but the least i expected u to do was to ask me. like seriously ask me was was going on. nevermind,i understand. however, things have changed. yesterday i said i never wanna throw this friendship away. but today i have second thoughts. but i feel guilty when i treat u badly u noe? but the thing is u dunno how to differenciate wad is joking and serious. u always assume that when someone is mean to you and u somehow dun like that person or even when that person is close to you. u think they are mad at u.. YOU ALWAYS MAKE ASSUMPTIONS. i have seen u making these assumptions in other people. i've tried to persuade u that they are not really angry and all.but this time IT IS ME. who will go and persuade u to believe im not really angry? yesterday i was 'thinking about stuff' but today something else is going on. yesterday there was this person missing. today she's here and u can leave me alone and go and talk to her instead. wad do u take me for? do u noe how u made me feel? when u looked away and didn't seem to care. do u noe how much i love u? u are my friend and a close one too. i dun like to see u sad and u always claim im a saddist. u PETTY AND OVERSENSITIVE FREAK. well.. i treat it as a joke. im okay. but today, i realised alot of things, in just a few minutes of ur actions. i will still love u and i will try to forget. but i noe our friendship will never be the same as the time we first met and became good friends. im really heartbroken. maybe u are too. but it's time for u to look for another person to pour ur troubles too.. cause im afraid it'll be to awkward to even look at you now. cause im afraid that i'll just break down. my fingers are tired and my eyes are sore enough. please dun make me cry no more. i noe i have made u sad and angry recently and im really sorry. i've apologised to u personally too.. but i really dunno wad made me do this today cause i noe it's different this time. this are my last words ILOVEYOU.
ok.. dun care about those words please. i noe ur eyes will hurt if u read them, but i just wanted to type out my feelings or wadever la..
woots. yay.. despite of wad happened..ok nvm. i shall cheer myself up. i shall not be emo and feel sad or angry. it's not worth it man! haha.. okok.. yay! im so happy for my physics! haha! yay! so that means my three sciences for this term have achieved that A and that 1.. omg.. yayness...wahaha. but i had careless mistakes, as usual. so yeah.. i shall not talk about guitar. nothing interesting except that whole beginning of my post. but i rather not talk abt it anymore. i jus wanted to pour it all out and then forget about it. at least i'll try to Xp after this im gonna tutor my horrible brother again.. maybe i shall quit my job and find another one.. this one's just too hard. nvm, i shall wait 3 more years. at least i can still earn money now. ^^
thanks for showing concern but im fine now. really. this will not bring me down(: <33>
when u are alone.im here for you.when u are surrounded with friends.i'll watch over you
7:18 PM
okok im quite "less angry" today. cause at least i noe my last minute mugging paid off. but i feel really bad cause there are some of my friends who studied even harder and still.. ):): haix....
CONGRATS to those who did well for history!! I didn't even noe it was possible to even get a A1. haha lol...and to those who didn't meet their expectations, DUN FEEL BAD(:(: cause u noe u've studied hard and tried ur best. results aren't everything. yes, it might prove to ur parents u've studied hard or wadever. but u noe urself that u've studied hard and all. Look on the bright side(: always look on the bright side of life! hehe
OH OH OH..i realised while going thru the paper i got ONE STUPID IDIOT HORRIGIBLE INCORIGIBLE VEGETABLE CARELESS MISTAKE.i ticked that ans correctly and wrote it down wrongly. WTH.. GRR... okok nvm bout that. for structured questions right... i wrote too little cause my hands
today's ACM was quite interesting.. omg.. saw NUDE pictures.. wahahaha... and there was this sculpture of this guy whose banana got corroded off or sumthin.. and i was like "ooo. he got his
i shall cut my head open and wash my brain with detergent and clear my mind of all impurities.. blueh .
haha.. but overall it was really fun. haha.. we were like taking stupid candid and crazy photos in the bus and exchanging seats like nobody's business 'eh i wanna seat there.i change with u for a while' wah.. especially SJ, Isabel and Sylvia.they were like 'eh quick come i take photo with u!" then they drag u over, snap a shot then Baibai.. im not surprised.. lolx.those crazy ppl.. tsktsk.. im gonna become one of them very soon.. maybe im like 1/3 or halfway there alr.. whoa..
now im gonna wait for the other results to come. i noe i'll not do well for maths..even if it's like just A1..i'll be OK but if i dun get that A1...i'll immediately drop dead on the floor. or if im feeling energetic.. i may just murder ISABEl, whose sitting beside me. sry. haha.. maybe i should isolate myself on the results day, then my friends would be safe.... no..... just safe-ER.. haha..kidding la.. i could never bring myself to kill anyone
im here for you (:when u are alone.im here for you.when u are surrounded with friends.i'll watch over you
7:13 PM
u seem so popular and welcomed by the world
that u never noe when someone is hating u
ur so fake.. fake like a menakin (however u spell it)
no heart.no soul.just a plain hard cover that is shown to the world
no one but US bothers to dig inside u and find out who u really are
actually, we don't have to, cause u have blindly shown it to us
please treasure ur friends now and i hate ur plan of having "back-up friends"
this one grows old u go to the other. wad shit are u planning la?
maybe u don't realise this urself but
WAKE UP U IDIOT! have a heart or i'll cut u open and stuff one in!
okay.. today was not good.
1) we got scolded by the maternal-mood-swing teacher "lazy! eat so fast but so slow when u exercise!"
and were forced to run 8 rounds non stop
2) i suck at art but i sucked even more today..
3) our french teacher
4) i was feeling down during guitar cause of some "thing" and then it related to something else which cause an even bigger problem (but it was solved in the end)
5) i found out i got lesser than 50/60 for history ): great,i studied so hard. well i dunno my exact marks yet.. but IT BETTER BE SATISFYING or the ppl around me BETTER BE CAREFUL...i"LL BURST THEIR EARDRUMS AND STRANGLE THEM!!! sry..in advance..
the good stuff
1) we got 1h20min of break cause ms NG didn't come today so NO PE.. but i like PE.. PE is nice.. but who cares?! we get an extra break! YAY
2) i did well for my history project (:
3) i got a distiction for my NEW SOUTH WALES SCIENCE COMPETITION!! WHOA 1st time man! im gonna receive prize tomo.. but im afraid of
4) CLARICE is part of guitar now! yay-ness.. now guitar will never be boring! LOLX..u are so pro.my jaw will drop when i see u play the violin.
i guess i have nothing else to say... hmm... now is waiting-for-results time.. GOSH.. so jing zhang... i hope i do well ok... this term i noe i slack like some serious smoker but it's just that it's not smoking it's slacking.. =.=.. see i am so anxious that i dunno wad im saying.. nvmnvmnvm...but cause i noe i slack so much.and seeing my close friends studying like cannot study any harder anymore. i really decided to do some serious mugging. even though i noe it's last min la but i really hope i can do well
i hope everyone does well ya(:(:(:
yay..hols are coming means more homework but more shopping! and running!! whoo hoo! kays ppl.. bb...
IM SO RELAXED... PHEW...
when u are alone.im here for you.when u are surrounded with friends.i'll watch over you
7:15 PM
yeah(:(: no more papers!! means hello shopping and byebye fats. well at least some of them. HarHArzzz.... got $$$ to spend.. omg.. yay.. i realised saving is fun cause the feeling of having $$$ is goooooddddd...
harhar.. today ABBY and momo and ME went shopping at PS.. bought my 1st FBTs.. i know =.=... and a FBT shirt. my gosh.. abby me and my sis have the same shirt same colour.. whoa.. haha.. so next time when we go running and wear the same attire, ppl think we from some association or wadever.. harhar...yay.. i finally have a proper running attire.. one which i am comfortable with. hehe.
now let's talk about the
physics wasn't too bad.. but if i see a SINGLE careless mistake rite... who noes wad will happen to the paper.. or to the ppl around me.. WARNING!!
okok... this week nothing interesting, i think. i shall wait.. or i shall go create some interesting thing to happen.. haha..get ready for a show ppl...
when u are alone.im here for you.when u are surrounded with friends.i'll watch over you
7:35 PM
hello hello hello!! (:(: hmm.. im bored of saying hello.. so i should say hi..
HI HI HI!!(:(: .. no.. maybe i should say it in other languages!...
BONJOUR!! ni hao!! AloHA!! ok.. enough of being lame.. o.0 hehe
yay.. hallelujah! my physics revision is officially done. and as for my maths. Hmm. actually i dunno wad i have to study. but i'll study later.. harhar. today went to a
wadever la.. it will happen someday.. as long as i am a christian at heart im content but i really wanna go to church. and thanks to the ppl who have invited me to their church b4(:(: but im sry i have never been able to make it ):
yuppyupp... okay... im so ready!!
cause after the CTs.. it's running time!! as well as SHOPPING!! cause now i have enough $$ yay!! i must yue ren chu lai.. okok!! bais ppl!!
when u are alone.im here for you.when u are surrounded with friends.i'll watch over you
5:35 PM
hellohelloohello(:(:(: physics and maths in two dAys! im so ready for maths! oh but physics...hmm.... i suck at conversions...haha but nvm shall practice practice practice!! hardihar =P
boo hoo... i haven't been to the court for a REAL long time. the hoop.the ring.the everything..haix.. that round orange thing. i haven't touched it for a really long time. nvm.. after common tests. i shall PLAY! haha.. i miss it. have only been to play at the
and after common tests... I WILL GO RUNNING AGAIN!! MUS USE THE SHOES.. omg.. haha..run run run.. runAWAY!! hahahahahahaha!! i miss it...im growing BIG and WIDE.. and i have so much
i really wish it was as easy as removing the fats on
ok ppl... im back to mugging... again... but at least it's not history XD haha.. but aiya.. i realise history is actually very interesting. (that's wad i said for geog haha, cause it's always the teacher's problem somehow) but nvm... okok... study study now..
BUHBYE <3
when u are alone.im here for you.when u are surrounded with friends.i'll watch over you
1:30 PM
You're not aloneTogether we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
It's finally over.praise the LORD.
No more late nights.oh my gosh
no more memorising.yeah
no more coffee.double yeah
but no matter how much i rejoice
i noe i don't have a choice
because it's stuck in my head like glue
but i noe im not a fool
i'll never regret the mugging nights
it felt really right
cause i was finally waking up
to the call for my bucking up
now all i have to do is wait
and i noe it. the faith
thank you the clique
seeing u all so hardworking
made me feel really guilty
so i decided to turn back to the older days
and start revising again
i hope everyone will pass history with flying colours.cause we saw how stressed everyone was today over this.we did what we can.we prayed and studied within the time we had.absorbing all the facts like a sponge.now it's over and done with.GOD BLESS u all(: today i came home straight. ate lunch. then i died.for the next two hours i was already in heaven.then i woke up.it was all a dream.and now im here.writing about it.and im writing about how im writing about it now.harhar.
jing ah, wad happen to you today? you very scary u noe.
yay.maths and physics here i come. no matter what i need that A. cause if not i will have nothing left and my dear phone would be taken away, along with everything else.
yay.maths and physics here i come. no matter what i need that A. cause if not i will have nothing left and my dear phone would be taken away, along with everything else.
okay.<33z>
when u are alone.im here for you.when u are surrounded with friends.i'll watch over you
5:27 PM